Movies!!!

One of my most favorite activities is watching little movies...especially with a daddy person. I just love them. It was actually one of my biggest complaints about my ex. He didn't like to watch little movies, he felt they were "stupid"...and it kind of hurt my feelings. I'm really excited about the upcoming movies for this summer! The panda movie...the robot movie...both...look...soooo...awesome! I actually saw the new Narnia movie today...I felt it was rather decent. If only I could find a daddy to take me to the movies, I would be so happy! I just think it would be so fun to have someone to go, buy popcorn and watch movies!

Clothing...

My taste in little clothing is changing. I believe that I am shifting from pretty lacey dresses and school girl to more of jumper dresses and little-type tshirts. However...dropseat PJ's shall LIVE ON!!! (especially since they are so freaking expensive). I ended up giving my dress and uniforms to Autumn since she likes them. I guess since the bad bad thing happened...I am just less...girly...less AB-ish...but totally still little all the way.

The jury is still out on the diapers though...I think I am leaning towards...no diapers...I just feel not so little. I am 5 again.

Quick thinking...

Tonight I was on the hunt for some nutmeg. Apparently, it is not at the organic food store...and i didn't need a huge amount from the warehouse store. However, I finally was able to go to the normal market, and dragged my brother along. I DID find some decently priced nutmeg...in a non-resealable bag. When I came across this I began to think...what can I put it in to keep it? Logically my brain thought...baby food jar! It became quite the excuse to be able to buy some without being thought insane. My brother even tried to come up with ideas for what to do with the baby food in the jar. I advised him I would throw it away. However, it is currently sitting next to me with a baby spoon for me to eat. YAY!!!

Growing down...

It would seem that as of my trip to SF...I seem to be...growing down! I guess what i mean is...I am starting to become comfortable with my littleness again...and being friends with everyone. I WANT someone to read me stories and tell me stuff and make the scary monsters go away. I WANT someone to be around and say its not ok for my tummy to have too much ice cream or milk or spinach (seriously lol). I want to color in a coloring book with my brand new glitter crayons and may pretty pictures.

Maybe I also want to wear a diaper and have someone change me...:-P

I want it all again.

Feeling violated...

The person who violated me sexually is not violating my internets space. I have discovered that he is now on Diaperspace and looking for LG's. To be honest, I wasn't even snooping for him. I was just curious and looking through profiles and stumbled acrossed his. I just felt so...violated. Like he took away a space for me that was safe and happy. A friend suggested I leave the site...but I don't know if that is the answer. I'm supposed to be moving past what happened...not running away and pretending it didn't happen. I don't want to let this even control the rest of my life...but its just hard you know?

Blargh.

OH THE AWESOMENESS!!!

Oh my gosh! I had soooooo much fun in SF! It was great to meet all the peoples up there! Everyone was so wonderful and awesomes! It was just so nice to be around so many people at one time that understand and like me for being me. I think I learned a lot about myself on the trip, and about how I have changed as an individual in the last 3 months. I was so so so happy to see my BFF! I wish I could see her more often for a longer period of time...but it was great to see her.

I had to work all day long on Thursday till 3:30 in the afternoon (I switched shifts with someone), then i booked it to my sister's work...then to the airport. I spoke to Autumn a little bit before our other friend B picked her up, and i wished i was there already and didn't have to wait like 4 hours. Then after checking in I talked to both of them and they were excited to get our friend J...and I still wished I was already there. Then I got on the airplane and wrote Autumn a 3,573 page letter about how awesome she is. Then I landed and called B...no answer...called autumn...no answer...called J...no answer...then called B again...and she answered (I was worried for a minute lol). Then we went back to B's house and I met B's daddy. We gave each other tons of presents (whoo hoo Frank! Whoo hoo Dragon Backpack! Whoo hoo all the awesome dinosaur stuffs from J!). Then we went to sleep.

We woke up to go sight seeing and it was awesomes! I really like Haight and all the awesome stores. Then we went to pier 39 and the Sea Lions were awesome, and there was this puppet store and a sock store and that was so so so fun!


There was a non-birthday party for Autumn that night, and we were running a little late back home and Autumn was kind of sad that people were already there so she couldn't make a grand entrance as planned. We all changed into awesome clothings...and i rocked the Magenta tights...I love them. I was sooooooo nervous meeting all my new friends! In fact when people tapped me on the shoulder I jumped lots! People gave me presents even though i totally felt bad cause i did not get THEM anything...so i suck in that department. We played with the balloon, and it got stuck in a tree. DD (B's daddy) tried to free the balloon with a single tail. Our other friend P's daddy ended up having to almost climb the tree to get the balloon for us. Autumns was afraid to get her dress dirty so other friend S kept yelling "ALL CLOTHES ARE TOMBOY CLOTHES!". Then there was the not birthday cake that was tasty and a few of us decided to eat without the assistance of utensils *giggle*. There was the making of items out of pipe cleaner...in fact i received a ring and was proposed to. However, we called off the wedding and got a divorce before the end of the night. Then we went to bed.

The next morning we all woke up and ate some tasty waffles of awesomeness. I diapered Autumns that morning (she wanted me to do it since i have more experience...but I didn't wear at all the whole weekend) and one of the tapes kept popping off, but she decided not to worry about it. The zoo was pretty fun. We saw tons of giraffes and autumn decided her diaper was actually going to fall off, so we went into the bathroom and she climbed up on the changing table (it was concrete not plastic lol) and I put another one on top of that one. There was a penguin feeding and people in pink furry hats.

Then everyone took naps while i colored and listened to the crazy bird that fights with B's window.

Sunday was tons of fun! I had packed up all my stuff the night before, so we just stuffed my stuffs in the car and headed off to the land of rollerskating. I TRIED to rollerskate...but apparently it was not in the cards for me. Which I still think is weird...I can rollerblade...I can ice skate...but I can't rollerskate! Before I fell on my bum quite hard, other other new friend MP's daddy pulled me on his bike...then about 5 minutes later i fell and hurt my bum. I was going to walk the rest of the time, but my (and everyone elses) new friend T fell down and convinced me to get a bike. Soooo I rode bikes and got ice cream. Then Autumn and T went to square dance....and I rode bikes with MP and she showed me some awesome stuffs. Then we all met up again and we all went to S's house. We met a puppy, and saw his rock climbing gear. We all talked about fun stuffs...and I decided i REALLY want to move to SF and Autumns should too.

Then we drove to the airport and I went home *tear*

The End (for me)

Stupid Stinkiness

I met someone that I thought was a glitter crayon, but it turns out is a stinky crayon. There is nothing wrong with being a stinky crayon, it is just not the right crayon for me. I have tried and tried and been patiently waiting to open this crayon box to see if this was a glitter crayon...I though I saw some sparkles...but I guess it was just my eyes playing tricks on me. Cause when the box finally opened there were not sparkles...just the stinkiness of crayons that are supposed to smell good, but just all smell like funniness.