Movies!!!

One of my most favorite activities is watching little movies...especially with a daddy person. I just love them. It was actually one of my biggest complaints about my ex. He didn't like to watch little movies, he felt they were "stupid"...and it kind of hurt my feelings. I'm really excited about the upcoming movies for this summer! The panda movie...the robot movie...both...look...soooo...awesome! I actually saw the new Narnia movie today...I felt it was rather decent. If only I could find a daddy to take me to the movies, I would be so happy! I just think it would be so fun to have someone to go, buy popcorn and watch movies!

Clothing...

My taste in little clothing is changing. I believe that I am shifting from pretty lacey dresses and school girl to more of jumper dresses and little-type tshirts. However...dropseat PJ's shall LIVE ON!!! (especially since they are so freaking expensive). I ended up giving my dress and uniforms to Autumn since she likes them. I guess since the bad bad thing happened...I am just less...girly...less AB-ish...but totally still little all the way.

The jury is still out on the diapers though...I think I am leaning towards...no diapers...I just feel not so little. I am 5 again.

Quick thinking...

Tonight I was on the hunt for some nutmeg. Apparently, it is not at the organic food store...and i didn't need a huge amount from the warehouse store. However, I finally was able to go to the normal market, and dragged my brother along. I DID find some decently priced nutmeg...in a non-resealable bag. When I came across this I began to think...what can I put it in to keep it? Logically my brain thought...baby food jar! It became quite the excuse to be able to buy some without being thought insane. My brother even tried to come up with ideas for what to do with the baby food in the jar. I advised him I would throw it away. However, it is currently sitting next to me with a baby spoon for me to eat. YAY!!!

Growing down...

It would seem that as of my trip to SF...I seem to be...growing down! I guess what i mean is...I am starting to become comfortable with my littleness again...and being friends with everyone. I WANT someone to read me stories and tell me stuff and make the scary monsters go away. I WANT someone to be around and say its not ok for my tummy to have too much ice cream or milk or spinach (seriously lol). I want to color in a coloring book with my brand new glitter crayons and may pretty pictures.

Maybe I also want to wear a diaper and have someone change me...:-P

I want it all again.

Feeling violated...

The person who violated me sexually is not violating my internets space. I have discovered that he is now on Diaperspace and looking for LG's. To be honest, I wasn't even snooping for him. I was just curious and looking through profiles and stumbled acrossed his. I just felt so...violated. Like he took away a space for me that was safe and happy. A friend suggested I leave the site...but I don't know if that is the answer. I'm supposed to be moving past what happened...not running away and pretending it didn't happen. I don't want to let this even control the rest of my life...but its just hard you know?

Blargh.