Lonely...

You know that feeling when you are surrounded by people, but feel so sad and alone? I have that right now. I am home visiting my family and it just sucks. I feel separate from my family because I have changed so much, and they have too. We just clash so much now...not that we ever DIDN'T clash... I'm just so tired of dealing with them and the issues that accompany them. I can't talk to any of my friends because they are all in a different time zone. I can't really talk to my Daddy because we have different schedules. I just feel like crap.

My mom keeps bringing up my whole ageplay and spanking preferences. She keeps comparing it all to child molestation. She says i am just dating guys that want to attack children and are too scared so they make me dress up and act little. She doesn't get it, and its irritating. I want to just try to explain it to her, but she would likely commit me. On a lighter note, my sister was snooping through my stuff and found my dropseat pajamas (im visiting my daddy on the way back). She didn't know what to say really, but my brother chimed in asking me how I could be so cruel to murder elmo and make pajamas from his skin. Which was really funny and made me laugh. Well then my mom was confused and started thinking i dress up as elmo for sex. Great.